I looked down at my suitcase and then up at Cesc. He was looking forward, at the panel that indicated the flights.Then he 

turned to me. “Lets go, your plane is next”.

I didn´t move. I didn´t want to move. But I had to. This place brought too many bad memories to me and I had to get away, even if its just for awhile.

Cesc sighed and made me stand up. “I know its tough right now, but believe me it´ll be better once you´re away.” I couldn´thelp but wince at his words. “No, you know that´s not what I meant. You will finally be able and move on. Face it, your parents have been gone for a month now but you´re still not okay. Moving will be good to you.”

Tears started to fill my eyes and he quickly added “Plus, you´ll get to see Geri!” At this thought my face lit up. I haven´t seen Gerard in such a long time. He´s always playing so its hard to see him.

I hugged Cesc goodbye, and it was really hard to let go but eventually I got in the plane that would take me to Barcelona.I spent the whole trip gazing through the window seeing nothing but clouds. When the plane started lowering I knew we were there.  I got off and went in search of my suitcases and after that went to the reception area. 

I searched for the face I knew so much, the face I grew up with. And when I locked my eyes on his baby blue eyes I couldn´t think but I just ran towards him. His big arms wrapped me in a tight hug and my legs were off the ground. He put me back down only to hold my face so he could see it. He didn´t say anything. We just stood there for a few minutes only taking each other´s sight in. He looked beautiful, with his blue eyes and stubby beard. After awhile he let go of y face and said “So how are you?”

in a very deep and concerned voice, much unlike him.

“I´ve been better.”He smiled at my poor atempt of making a joke.

“So, did you miss me?”He asked with a teasing smile.

“Ummm…only a little bit” he tried to look hurt but didn´t quite nail it. He was never a good actor.”Of course I missed you!”

And with that he enveloped me in another hug and we took off to his house.

I insisted on staying in a hotel but since I was going to be here for a few months both Geri and Cesc persuaded me to stay at Geri´s house. Once we got there my jaw drop as I stared at the beautiful house. It was the first time I´d seen it and it was beyond gorgeous. “Geri, its beautiful.” He sighed and I looked at him puzzled. “This reminds me how we barely see each other. Here you are, visiting my house for the first time and I´ve had it for a long time now.”

I looked down not wanting to meet his eyes. Something changed over those years that we haven´t seen each other. Gerard looked even more handsome, though he has always been that way. I realized I felt attracted to him. It is true that back when we were around 10 years old I did develop a small crush for him but I soon got over it. But no that I look back, me and Geri have always had something special, beyond friendship. Something I didn´t share with Cesc. I remember one day when my dog died.

I was only 13 at that time so you can imagine how devastated I was. I didn´t want to see anyone, I locked myself in my room and stayed there for hours. As soon as Geri knew about what had happened he went to my house. With great agility, climbed into my room through the window and hugged me. We spent the whole day lied on my bed holding each other. He stayed with me untilI fell asleep and in the morning I woke up next to a note saying that he was sorry but he had to go to training.

We never talked about that night again. He probably even forgot. But I know that this memory will never leave my mind.